Laura Prepon is getting candid about her eating disorder.
The 40-year-old Orange Is the New Black star spoke about her story in the upcoming guide to moms, You & I, as Mothers, and People provided an interview and excerpt from the book on Wednesday (March 25).
“My mother taught me bulimia. It started when I was 15 and lasted until my late twenties. I always thought of myself as this strong, confident woman, but it became a compulsion that would completely debilitate me,” she revealed.
She explained that at 15, when she went to an open casting at a modeling agency, she was told to lose 25 pounds, which became her and her mom’s “shared project.”
“My mom started weighing me every morning and taking my measurements,” she said.
“That’s when she told me, ‘You can have your cake and eat it too.’ I knew exactly what she was talking about. It was a bonding thing we would do together. A shared secret.”
“She was bulimic in college, and after she lost weight, she met my father. So to her, being thin equaled success,” Laura went on to explain.
She also reflected on her relationship with her mother today, who is in advanced stages of Alzheimer’s disease.
“I don’t want to be angry with her, especially now, because I don’t know how much time we have left. I want those moments when she is present to be good.” For more from Laura, head to People.com.